This paper revisits narratives heard during a master's research project on experiences of homoerotism by older men. Emphasis is placed on processes of resistance and subjectivity in relation to the hegemonic models that provide the contours of old age and homosexuality. Avoiding the fatalism of abjection usually attributed to older homosexuals, it is argued that the older gay subject inhabits the border of a discursive regime which establishes, on the one hand, a field of legitimacy and; on the other hand, a zone of unintelligibility, a constitutive outside. This discursive border zone (performatized by the materiality of the body) does not necessarily constitute an abject life, but incites cracks through which desire may potentially acquire expression. In that sense, the narratives pointed out towards a possible ethics of aging, one from which subjects may lead and (re)invent life, body, and desire.
aging; homoeroticism; body; male homosexuality; self narratives