BECOMING A MOTHER OF A CHILD WITH CANCER: BUILDING MOTHERHOOD

The present study, which was conducted using the Interpretive Interactionism method, had the objective of understanding the experience of becoming a mother of a child with cancer. Seven mothers, whose children were undergoing cancer treatment, took part in semi-structured interviews. The results showed that mothers’ role are built in a process that implies the interaction between two themes: LIVING THE TIME OF THE ILLNESS, in which mothers concentrates in themselves, continuously permeated by the uncertainties inherent in the disease, and the need to remove the threats of the child’s death; and LIVING A TIME OF STRUGGLE FOR THE CHILDREN’S LIFE, which represents the dimension of mothers’ behavior in developing their new role. The articulated theme and the epiphanies allowed identifying the connection between parenthood and temporality, in which the time comes into the dimensions of the development of the mother’s role.


INTRODUCTION
Children and adolescents with cancer are a group of people who have the uncontrolled proliferation of cells in common and that, with early diagnose and treatment in specialized centers, present a cure rate of approximately 80%.Due to the complexity of the disease and treatment, life of children and their family go through several transformations, and it is necessary to adapt to a new routine and demands that become part of the every day life of the families (1) .
In many studies in the area of Pediatric Oncology, mothers are identified as the main source of support and generally take care of children who are sick.Alteration in the biography and the transition of being a mother of a healthy child to being mother of a child with cancer demands a redefinition of selfidentity and the role of mother after confirming diagnosis of their children (2) .
Mothers are considered the axes of family structure, and they control raising and educating children, caring for the house and for the health of family members.The role of care taker is expected from them and they have to take care of themselves.
To perform this role, mothers ended up creating strategies, such as changing working hours, and giving up their jobs for the sake of the domestic routine and children's demands (3) .
Parenthood in the context of children's cancer is justified by the relevance of understanding the dimensions involving the experience of being a mother of a child with cancer.Parenthood is a complex process, not only as a biological relationship result, but also the process of becoming a father and a mother (4) .According to the literature, being a mother is playing the role of mother, a multidimensional role encompassing dimensions in the family relation such as closeness, support, monitoring, communication, and acceptance (4)(5) .
Parenthood can also be defined as the ability to offer care and an environment that enable an excellent growth and development to any human being.The term "family" can be broadly used as a reference in the social environment in which parenthood is conducted (6) .

Traditional
approach investigates psychological and social aspects of the disease in childhood, representing parenthood in terms on how parents adjust to their children's disease (2) .Regarding the experience of mothers in living with their children's cancer, the perspective of care demands thinking on how they take up the responsibility of being mothers facing their children's disease, before focusing on their psychological suffering (7) .
Thus, considering issues involving being a mother of a child with cancer, the questions of the survey that guided this study were: We believe that for care, it is essential to understand the experience of having a child with cancer, the meaning given to the disease, to treatment, and to the impact on the family routine, and mothers have to continue playing their roles as mothers.This understanding can give us elements to guide more precisely actions to help and support mothers as people and active subjects in this process.
Thus, this study aimed at understanding the experience of becoming mothers of children with cancer.

THEORETICAL AND METHODOLOGICAL REFERENCE
Symbolic Interactionism was the theoretical perspective of this study, whose main ideas were based on the process of interaction, in which individuals are active and learn to give meaning to things, valuing the meaning human beings give to their experiences.The meaning of things results or emerges from the social interaction human beings establish with each other (8) .As a methodological reference, we have chosen Interpretive Interactionism whose objective is to obtain dense and detailed descriptions of experiences biographically important that changed meaning and way people act.These significantly important life experiences receive the name of epiphanies, interaction moments that influence directly the way individuals will act with and in their context.Interpretation is a process that searches for a meaning of an event or experience (9) .
Considering mothers in the situation of their children's cancer, interacting with other people, with the disease, and with themselves, we believe that the interaction perspective will enable, through interpretation, to know and understand the reality of being mother of a child with cancer defining and writing their history  Data analysis: For data analysis, steps recommended by Interpretive Interactionism were followed (9) .The stages of this method are: defining the issue in study; deconstruction and critical analysis of the conceptions of the phenomenon; understanding the phenomenon, located and placed into the context; reduction of the phenomenon, isolating it in the context in which it occurred through finding and isolating key sentences; building the phenomenon, articulating data again from the meaning coming from the previous sentence; contextualization, placing the phenomenon back in the context, interpreting it and giving it meaning.
Thus, after transcription of interviews and reading biographic narrative of mothers, the experiences reported were broken into small sentences, enabling identification of experience units.
From a detailed process of understanding semantic load, and the evidences contained on the narratives, experience units are compared one with another with its meaning on the experience, according to their similarities and differences.Units connected by the same meaning were grouped, allowing for identification of categories and subcategories.
Comparison and integration of categories articulated on the experience allowed to identify themes and sub themes that revealed meanings and experiences in the universes forming these experiences.Last, when we understood how the construction of the role of mothers appears in the experience of becoming a mother of a child with cancer, we could identify the moments that were intensively remembered.These moments that carry feelings that will never be forgotten are called revealing moments, or epiphanies, and bring a redirection to mothers' lives and to the construction of their role facing the cancer of their children.In this time of discovery, mothers perceive that it is     When we try to understand the experience of being mothers of a children with cancer, we realize there is a interlink between parenthood and temporality, that is, between becoming full time mothers and playing the role of mothers and the time which is one of the essences in the construction of this role.Thus, the following epiphanies could be identified: the disease, but also their time as mothers of that children is under risk.From that moment, all decision making process take part, together with several actions of the mothers to prevent their time with their children to be over.

DECIDING THAT THIS IS THE TIME OF THE
CHILDREN: When they see their children's life under risk, mothers face a situation where it is essential to establish a priority to their lives, that will be the focus of concern and that will lead to all decision making.
Deciding that this is the time of the children is to decide that they will be the most important thing in their lives and in the family, so that every body can get ready for the hard time that is coming.
FIGHTING FOR THEIR CHILDREN GEARED BY LOVE: Mothers believe that fighting for their children's life is their duty as mothers.They are in the front line, meaning they will take up the fight together with children, geared by their love as mothers, as if that was also their battle, living the experience in full.This is a time of sacrifice, where mothers try to do everything they can to keep children as far away as possible from the danger the disease represents.
The way these revealing moments are expressed in the experience of being mothers of children with cancer is represented in the Figure 1.be their duty as mothers, women, and human beings (10) .Protective care is part of all actions of mothers with children, and to give it, mothers feel the need to control the situation (11) .In our study, this Transitions in life may be many and have been described as paths in which people face changes (12) .
The experience in transition may occur due to changes in health situation and in the disease of individuals, and are considered complex and multidimensional, and time is among their priority.Transition is extension of time that starts with the first signs of change, it flows through a period of instability, confusion and anguish and it ends with a new beginning or a period of stability (13)   .
Living the diagnosis of children with cancer is a sudden and unplanned experience, thus the role of mothers, which is not static, needs to be reviewed,

FINAL CONSIDERATIONS
Considering the lack of evidences on the literature focusing on the understanding of the multidimensional role of mothers and the construction of parenthood in the experience of becoming mothers of children with cancer, we believe this study may contribute to build a new thinking on this experience.
Results show how mothers, even suffering due to the situation of their children's disease, follow their journey as mothers and face the struggle against cancer with their children.New surveys may and must be performed in this sense, aiming at building knowledge on parenthood in the situation of the disease.
"In the adventure of each family, it comes to us, sometimes only as a pit stop.It would be good for them if, just as the inn on the middle of the road, they could find someone waiting to serve them, relieve their suffering, where they could reestablish themselves, regaining their strength to continue with the path" (14) .Understanding the experience lived by mothers of children with cancer in building parenthood gives elements that may bring about actions to help and support care of nursing in pediatric oncology more precisely.We believe that these actions may meet the real needs of mothers and ensure living t h i s e x p e r i e n c e f u l l y i n t h e c o m p l e x p a t h o f children's cancer.
regarding children cancer, what would be the dimensions of being mothers in the experience of the diagnosis of cancer in their children?What are the meanings mothers give to their children's disease?How mothers experience their roles in this situation?
Acceptance of the participants in sharing their stories was made official through Informed Written Consent.Participants of the study: Seven mothers of children undergoing cancer treatment took part in the study.Mothers were between 24 and 41years old, six were married and one was a widow.All of them had children undergoing chemotherapy at the time of interview; they were the ones with the children during treatment.Three mothers were coming from other states.Two mothers developed professional activity outside the household and one in the household.The others had left their activities to stay with their children during treatment.The number of participant mothers was not previously determined.Data collection was performed at the time we realized the absence of new data, and the development and densities in the category were achieved.Data collection: Data collection was guided by the Biographic method and occurred in the period from December 2005 to April 2006.The strategy to obtain data was semi-structured interview guided by the question: "Please, tell me about your experience of having a child with cancer."Narratives were totally recorded and transcribed after interview was performed.

and subcategories allowed for 2
themes to be identified: LIVING THE TIME OF THE ILLNESS, formed by the sub themes BECOMING A MOTHER OF A CHILD WITH CANCER and TAKING THE RISK OF TREATMENT, and LIVING A TIME OF STRUGGLE FOR THE CHILDREN'S LIFE, formed by the sub themes PREPARING FOR A TIME OF BATTLE and FIGHITING FOR THE CHILDREN'S LIFE.LIVING THE TIME OF THE ILLNESS: Reveals a conversation of mothers with themselves, a view of themselves as mothers.The inner work of mothers in this new condition starts with acceptance that their children have cancer and is continuously marked by uncertainties of the disease and the need to remove the idea of death of the children.DISCOVERING ONESELF AS MOTHERS OF CHILDREN WITH CANCER it is to live the time of diagnosis, experiencing a sudden change, and facing the threat the disease represents to their children's life.Despite all this, mothers try to recover their balance to start the difficult path of cancer.Discovering oneself as mothers of children with cancer is Not wanting to waste time, revealing the need for acting fast to remove the possibility of losing their children.It is also living the uncertainty regarding treatment that represents doubts of mothers about the disease, on how to act and take care of their children, and about the future of their children.
LIVING A TIME STRUGGLING FOR CHILDREN'S LIFE: This shows the dimension of mothers' behaviors, that are expressed in the interactions with themselves, with their children and with all the elements involved in the experience of their children's disease, showing the construction of their role as mothers of children with cancer.It represents the search of mothers for PREPARING THEMSELVES TO A TIME OF BATTLE, a difficult time brought by the disease.Mothers try to know the enemy, that is, know more about cancer, searching for important elements to get strong.As they get to know the disease, they also get to meet people experiencing it.This gives them hope and makes them realize they are not the only one struggling.Preparing themselves for a time of battle is a time of making choices.The life of their children and the new demands of the disease are the focus of attention and trigger all the decisions, demanding a reorganization of roles and redirecting life.Children are the priority in this time of battle, it is necessary to choose a safe place to treat children based especially on the safety the institution gives to mothers, children, and the family.
fight, mothers realize they need to get strong for the battle.They get strength in the faith in God, and in the hope of a time without the disease.Mothers take up the struggle for their children's life, keeping themselves tough and believing they can stand all that suffering.They feel they can overcome any barrier to be next to their children, but for that, they need to take care of themselves and their family.Thus, when they experience the struggle for their children's life, protecting and being a support for them, aiming at getting strong and getting their children strong to fight the disease, mothers can feel more like mothers.They can give themselves to their children, doing their best, and overcoming any obstacles there may be to see their children well.Everything they do is not because they have to, but because of the love they have for their children.Their love seems to increase and become stronger than it was before the disease.This love, together with the desire of not wanting their time with their children to get to an end, make them act and fight together with their children.
NOTICE THAT THEIR TIME WITH THE CHILDREN IS THREATENED: When they receive the diagnosis of their children's cancer, mothers notice that not only the life of their children is threatened by Becoming a mother of a child with cancer… Moreira PL, Ângelo M.

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Figure 1 -Becoming mothers of children with cancer: building a parenthood fighting for their children's life performing the role of mother, try to protect their children all the time, keeping them from any worsening to their condition and possibility of loss.In the interrelation between parenthood and time, protecting their children is a strategy for that time as mothers not to end.Becoming mothers of children with cancer can be considered a transition experience.Transitions in people's lives may be planned or occur unexpectedly.
fight the disease.They do everything they can to remove the threat of death represented by the disease.